***JEENA ISI KA NAAM HAI***

Hmm...kya batau ab main..

Ki kaha khadi hu ab mein...

Umeedo ki is aandhi se..

Kaise ladi hu ab main...

 

Tasveer jo bani thi..

Hui aujhal aise...

Jalte hue hue deepak ko..

Bujhaya kisi bezor hawa ne jaise..

 

Naa awaz hui..

Naa takkkaluf hui..

Naa keh saki kuch bhi..

 

Bas bandhe hu hontho se..

Unhi Nam hui aankho se...

Apni kahani bayaan karti chali gyi...

 

Na koi sun ne ko tha..

Naa hi koi dilasa dene ko...

Naa koi kehne ko tha...

Naa kuch kehne ko bacha tha...

 

Apni badhti hui pareshaniyo ko..

Apne sir pe hi rakh

Chalti chali gyi..

 

Kyuki jeena isi kaa naam hai...

 

Dil mera shukriya karne ko bhi karta hai kabhi...

Jo sheek mili hai tujhse...

Wo na bhoolungi kabhi..

 

Kyuki jeena isi ka naam hai....

"Words from heart"

Why ????

Why  ???

Why did this happen to me ???

Why the hell I wasn't chosen for this ???

What was my fault ???

 

 

Having tears in my eyes,

Writing with trembling hands,

Fingers shivering due to grief locked inside...

Lips tightened due to pain in my eyes,

Tears all around...

Wishes shattered on the ground...

Starring at me....

Crying on my incapability to fulfil them....

Dreams shouting in pain....

Asking why I gave birth to them ??

Grief has taken over me and my dreams, in evil's disguise...

Seeing all happy around me...

Having tears in my eyes...

Writing with a trembling hand...

Fingers shivering due to grief locked inside..

 

Looking for the guiding light...

 Running in a dark tunnel...

Filled with grief and pain...

Searching for the guiding light ...

that would help me to stand again...

 

Shouting in pain....

Wailing out in pain...

Running in a dark tunnel...

Filled with grief and pain...

 

Ignoring all around me...

Am sitting in a lonely tree...

Me and my loneliness....

Fighting from each other to come over...

 

Regretting the time I wasted ....

Thinking have done nothing...

And I don't deserve the worldly pleasure...

The thing on which am writing ..

Is also not mine...

The thing which am enduring...

Is also not mine...

 

The path of success is not known to me...

Nor I can ever define it...

A person who has seen only defeats in life...

Can never live a happy day...

 

Every second seems a burden on my soul...

But this endless tunnel never ends...

Did all those things and made all those efforts...

But they were somewhere futile....

 

Shall I take a Deep breath ??

And think that everything will  be fine ??

 

Have gone through many things...

And now I want peace from life...

Heart grieves in pain...

Teary eyes are now dry...

The drop also thinks that it's in vain to cry...

 

Heart knows something good will happen...

I wish I could believe it...

Running in this dark tunnel...

Am addicted to have teary eyes...

 

Am walking with trembling legs...

Having no strength to look up...

Living for others in life...

Trying not to break up...

 

God !! I ask you having teary eyes...

Was I destined to this defeat...??

With an honest heart looking up to you...

Have mercy and answer me..

Looking for a Silver lining...

Looking for this tunnel to end...

Guide me to the path which leads to you ...

 

***Surrendering my soul to you***

"TIME"

I feared probably after much time like this;

I can clearly hear my heartbeats..

Oh God ! Have mercy have pity on this restless soul !

 

For,

Time is moving as swiftly as it can...

Its flying as ghastly as it can..

It's warning me as closely as it can...

It's threatening me as ghostly as it can...

It's telling me...to fulfil my responsibilities...

As Earnestly as I can...

 

My nerves are as cold as ice now...

My skin has become more sensible to the situations forthcoming...

 

I can't be like this..

The way I've been all this time...

I will have to change myself...

To the best as I can...

Because...

Time is moving swiftly...

As swiftly as it can ... !!!

A Place Where My Soul Rests

 Wherever my body moves, My soul will always crave for you ..
Wherever My destiny takes me, my heart will always stay with you...

The bond which ties me with you is ...
irreplaceable and strong...
My heart, my body & my soul, cries out loud to be with you !

The peace which I received from your love, can be found nowhere In this world...
Wherever I move, I take a part of you with me...

I miss spending splendid evenings, moving barefoot on your shore..
I miss your zephyr everywhere I go...

I wish I could rush back to you, running to the place I knew, I will come to you back soon, I know I will have to wait for that

FAMILY VS. FRIENDS . . . ARE YOU CONFUSED ??? READ ON :)

I confronted one of the most important questions which teens generally come across. Where it becomes hard for them to choose one !!. I wish and think that my blog will help you out. Read on and decide, listen to what your heart says :)

I agree that there are talks and things which you can’t share with your family, people say that there are secrets which cannot be shared with family. Like your first crush, your first affair, your love life, your first date & the list goes on. It’s good to be around with people of same age as yours as they have the same mindset and they share the same energies with you. I agree due to generation gap many of us have never shared our secrets with our family, but if you try to share each and everything with them I bet they will understand you, they always do that!! It can never be ignored that whenever in trouble they defend us and in joy they celebrate with us. Our Family stands with us no matter what. It’s a relationship which stands beside us for no reason, NO REASON AT ALL!! They love you, treat you as your own, show you right way, stand with you all the time be it good or bad, encourage you, and make you believe in your dreams, help to chase them (dreams), and try to provide the best of your lives, without expecting anything in return. They love us unconditionally and wish to see us happy and successful. If they restrict us doing something it’s for our good only, we may not like and offend their decision at that time but in the end, after years have passed, we do realize the fact that it was for our good only. They sacrifice everything to see you happy and make you smile. They always wish to see you progress and achieve the heights of success.

Friends are indeed important!! But they stand at different place when it comes to relationships. They hangout with you, they party hard with you, they stroll and make you happy all the time. But when you are with your family they make you feel comfortable and complete, secure and loving, moreover when we have friends who care and share and stands through all the ups and downs of our life we start considering them as family, remember the punch line?? “tum to ghar ke hi ho, tumhse kya chupana!” which translates “you are as my family, there is nothing that I’ll hide from you!!”.

To me it’s easy to find a friend in family, than finding a family in a friend. My mom is my friend who cares, shares, assures and secures. My dad is my friend, philosopher and guide to me who encourages all the time to chase my dreams, no matter how hard it is !! My brother is my friend who teases, fights, gets angry, shouts all the time but then in end of the day brings me a box full of chocolates shares and eats with me. Friend’s do have an important place in any one’s life but not more than a family. Family member can forego their dreams and career for you, I hardly see any friend doing that in today’s world!!!

Moreover it’s not all about blood relations, it’s all about the depth of understanding you share with them  :-) Friends do hold an important part but if you ask me to choose one from them I will always say “Family Comes First”

Thank You.

Country Girl :-)

"In Darkest Shades Of Life"

There are times. . . 

When you wish to stop breathing, . .

When you wish to stop believing, . .

When you wish to curl all your desires and dreams, . .

When you wish to stop expecting things from life. . .

When you wish to stop thinking, . .

When you wish to stop laughing, . .

When you bring yourself to a state where nothing works. . .

When you don’t wish to listen ringing of bells in the world. . .

When you hate the melody of the bird singing out in the shade. . .

When you think when life should stop !!

When nothing goes right !!

You miss something. . .

You probably miss that charm. . .

You miss that light. . .

But you don’t know exactly what that charm it is !!

When we wish to cry. . . cry aloud. . .loud enough so that he can hear us. . . can hear us clearly up above in the heavens. . . and helps to heal us. . . .

When we know that, that supernatural power is keeping a watch on us. . . from heavens. . . and counting down. . our tears. . .When we yearn inside. . . deep down in heart. . . mourning to discover that charm. BUT. . .

WE BELIEVE. . . believe in that supernatural power. . . though we have never seen him. . . but we have faith. . . deep inside we know he is standing by us every hour . . . every single second of life !!! Fold your hands and pray. . thank him for every breath he gave. . for every struggle he gave. . .for every turmoil. . . .pray to him to give a stronger back so that you bear all the worst of world !!

 Country Girl.

Change: An Inevitable Process

“In the world that I seldom understand, there are winds of destiny that blow when we least expect them. Sometimes they gust with a furry of hurricane; sometimes they barely fan one’s cheek. But the winds cannot be denied, bringing as they often do a future that is impossible to ignore.” ~ "Message in the Bottle"

How lovely, true & b’tful these lines are. Actually was going through a novel by Nicholas Sparks “Message in the bottle” and came across these lines. Wondering how simply and beautifully the author have penned down words in lines to make them wonderful and serene. How easily winds change everything, who else than me can know it. Where I was few years back and where I am standing now, anyone can figure it out easily (Anyone = People who know me personally . . .uh uh uh is there anyone so ?? NO a BIG BIG NO!!!). Although I took the road less traveled which lead me to the place where I am standing right now. The inner soul of any person needs tranquility of mind, self revere and amicable ambiance. Men on earth have found numerous ways to tackle and travel the awkward situation which they confront in life. Meditations, yoga asans, activities like dancing, singing, painting, and the list go on . . . he finds inner serenity in the act which satisfies him, gives him pleasure & peace, both outer and inner (mine is writing). The things which happen in our life are pre-determined. No one can change it, except strong will, strong perseverance and very strong yearning to achieve one’s fascination. If change leads you to the dusk, your valor can turn it into dawn (backed up by personal experience). It all simply depends on person’s attitude and way of tackling the situation, which he is going through. Some take it as challenge-a new beginning while some take it as end. It solely depends on you how you take it in your mind. Life is a roller coaster ride, if you are witty enough you surely gonna enjoy the ride and on the same side if you are dull you will miss the charm of life. Change is although an inevitable process, but when you take it as a challenge, a new beginning, you are going to win for sure. So my friend be highly optimistic about things going around and enjoy life as if it is the last moment to live. Laugh, live, transform and smile J (I really think The Universe is with me; refreshed my twitter timeline & the first tweet which I saw was from “@TheGodLight” which writes “CHANGE IS THE RULE OF LIFE. NOTHING STAYS THE SAME FOREVER. EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE SO ACCEPT THIS AND ENJOY LIFE.”

Thanks & Regards,

Country Girl.